Even When You Don’t

“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in or steal; for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” ‭Matthew‬ ‭6:19-21‬ ‭

This verse that I have heard all too often in my 33 years has become more real than ever before in the past few months. Mercy Me has a song called “Even If.” There are so many powerful lyrics that resonate with my life – “I know You’re able and I know You can, save through the fire with Your mighty hand. But even if You don’t, My hope is You alone.” Except that instead of even “if” I have been in a season of “even when.” 

For months before Charles died, the threat of losing everything was hanging over our heads very heavily. It caused more stress than I could have ever imagined, mostly for my husband, as the majority of the weight of the situation was on his shoulders. Not only was everything that his entire family including himself had worked for, for years was on the line but also the ability to provide for his care was at stake. 

That is a heavy burden. 

A heavy burden that we not just daily, but sometimes multiple times a day, had to remember to lay at Jesus’ feet.

There are so many details of the situation, so many things that went wrong and were out of everyone’s control. There was so much wrong that was done to us to cause the situation. And I still don’t know why God chose to not rescue and redeem us from the circumstances that led to such a downfall, because I know that He was able to do that, but what I do know is that God’s promises are true.

All the things that we feared and more have occurred in the past few months. There is almost nothing left of my former life except for people. 

But the many conversations that Charles and I had about the truth of this verse have continuously resonated in my heart because it’s not about our treasure here on earth but in heaven. 

It’s as if my old life was burned up in a fire only leaving ashes, and it’s tempting to want to mourn and return to the ashes in hopes that it will all go back to the way it was. But God …

But God – He has been so so faithful to give me the strength to move on – truly making beauty from the ashes as only He can. He has provided a new house, a new car, new friends and a new life in a totally miraculous way and far better than I could have ever hoped, dreamed or imagined. God’s blessings are abundant and beyond what I deserve. 

And even though there is still so much uncertainty of the future, I know that He has taken care of me every step of the way and I know that He will continue to do so if I continue to look ahead to all that God has provided and not what is behind. It is a reminder of my grandmother’s favorite verse she has quoted to me so many times….

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.” ‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:5-6‬ ‭

Acknowledge HIM and He WILL make your paths straight. 

“You’ve been faithful, You’ve been good,   All of my days, Jesus, I will cling to You. Come what may” Even If – Mercy Me

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  1. Penney Smith says:

    We continue to pray for you, Spring, and are so thankful you are trusting God as your faithful rock!

  2. Cathy Stovall says:

    Thank you for sharing, My very favorite verse! It’s the one that has really helped me. I still recite it everyday:)